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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 05:17

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She found it foreign!.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

How strict are your parents?

I was very sick at this time too.

My family never makes their pension either.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why is it easy to make money in the USA?

I don,t even have a pension.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

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Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Put me off passion for life!!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Why do I feel sleepy after massage?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Who then, do I blame.?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I could never make a relationship work though!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And i lived it daily.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

What transforms the philosophical intellect?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

How do I identify fake friends in life?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He resisted the act ,that day.

I have no regrets .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I said to her

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was seconnd youngest,

She wouldn,t have been !

I will be 64.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

This is soul school!.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

But, we were locked up after school.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She was in good health!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She loved him until the end.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was 9 years of age.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

We were not on the streets..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We all went to grammer schools

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

What did i know ?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I think the readers, may guess!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I never cut or harmed myself..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

It was going to be , some day.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

One cannot live in the past .

On the 31st of Jan this month .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Im still living with it.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

All the time i was locked up.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was scared of men, in general

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So whats the point in blame.

Ive learnt so much.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But it wasn’t much.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I write beautiful poetry .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

My mum and dad in the seventies!

So, i spoilt her more .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

When she asked me how she looked .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Especially a lifetime of it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I waited trembling.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Would this be the day?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He knew the spot.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My life is so biszare .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

(And it was in our own minds.)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She married twice! .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!